I just remembered a time on my mission when one of the other missionaries in my zone (we were in El Tigre at the time) gave a lesson on how music can make us feel and affect how people feel “the spirit.” He played "Donkey Rhubarb" by Aphex Twin which I had on a tape. This one guy flipped out – not seriously, he was joking, but clearly half joking. He said “Who made that song?? Kill him. He should be killed.”
I suppose it turned out to be a great lesson in how music can make you feel. I still think it’s a great song.
I was wondering today, as I started my walk into work, if a way to think of adulthood is simply as the assumption of a lot of responsibility, and if adolescence is a sort of trial period of taking responsibility, and, then, if there’s an historical trend toward prolonging adolescence, or maybe minimizing adulthood. Of course, I don’t know what “a lot” of responsibility is. Maybe it’s when you have other humans depending on you, whether they’re your family or employees or clients or…I don’t know.
I was feeling old. And I was thinking about this line in a Joakim song called “This Is My Life” where he says “I decided to become an adult.”
I have a vague memory of when I decided to become more of an adult. It was about eight years ago, when I decided to spend more money than I had on a really nice desk made by my friend Jared. I wanted a big heavy piece of furniture to tie me down and to show people (girls) that I was a serious person. It’s really funny to think about it now.
But I do think becoming an adult a decision you have to make, and I wonder if it always has been. Part of me thinks that human development (e.g. cheaper access to food, education, health care, etc) could make becoming an adult easier to avoid, but another part of me thinks that it’s always been something people could avoid.
I have a lot of responsibilities. They consume me, but I like them. I like pushing my rock up my hill.